A friend texted me last night and told me she was sorry for anything wrong she might have done or said.
Three days before, she and her friends did something very rude that hurt my feeling. It would have hurt anyone, but the fact that they did it made it even worse. They didn't apologise the next day, but I knew from the look in their eyes that they had felt awful about it.
But she was the only one who apologised. She probably wasn't sure what she did exactly that made me gave her (and his friends) a cold shoulder, but the fact that she came to me and admitted she was wrong proved to me that she still has a clear conscience. She just knew she did something bad, and she wasn't feeling all right about it. Obviously.
People can really be surprising. Those who you thought were close may not find you important and can easily ditch you for something else. People who you thought were feeble actually have the courage to acknowlege their mistakes and do something about it.
I learn that whenever I'm angry or hurt by what other people did to me, the best way to simmer down is to try to understand. And what I conclude so far is that people have different views on relationship and they may not be able to really fulfill your expectation. Thus the anger and pain and disappointment. But you can always control your reaction. Some people may not want to get attached to anything or anyone so while you're happy being attached to them, they may not feel the same. In any case, you're the one who must make adjustment because they won't change unless they feel the need to change. Detach yourself from them, or be kind to them like you would be kind on people you've just met on the street. Whatever. People just aren't perfect and they will let you down, that's just the way it is.
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And one more thing: God has a funny way of showing us what we need to see. Sometimes we're so fixated on something or someone and give all our attention to it or to them, when there's actually something or someone else that really need our efforts or our prayer or our companionship. And a lot of times, they deserve it more.
