The Importance of Dream

"Because great people can’t afford to measure themselves by the visions of their peers. They must measure their standards by the quality of their own visions...what they see for themselves. Creative people create their own worlds.”

- The BRIT School for Performing Arts & Technology -

What I Know for Sure

People often complain that they have dream(s) but it is so difficult to see it manifest. 

Here's what I know for sure. 

Having a dream means knowing what you want in life. No matter how difficult it is to make it come true, it is still  so much easier than not knowing what to do in life. 

Knowing exactly what you want in life is a blessing. It gives you direction. It gives you a sense of purpose. 

And those of you who do should be thankful for every given day you have to get what you want.  

So, here you go. 

www.everything-inspiring.com

Keep telling myself..

www.piccsy.com

Drifting

That's me, drifting between heaven and earth.

The problem with having no project on hand is that I'm losing my foothold on the ground. Having projects mean having short term goals to look forward to, and I like it because it gives me a sense of direction. 

Now I'm not so sure where I'm heading. 

I'm not sure about wanting to continue to promote classical music here, with shitty people and their shitty work ethics and shitty community (sorry, that's really too much shit in sentence but I just can't help it). I'm not sure about wanting to go abroad to study because there's no point of learning something if I can't apply it.  

But I really hate being unsure about things. Like enthusiasm, doubt can be very infectious. Now I'm starting to feel unsure about everything, about what I really want to do in life (although, seeing how miserable I am for not being able to do anything about my true passion, I think it's quite clear what I must do). I have been thinking about taking another gap year, meeting new people, learning new skills, but what will happen if I come back to the very same shitty spot?

I don't know which one is harder: having an (almost) impossible dream and keep chasing rainbows or having a life without a dream. Some people live their lives just fine without dreams. I don't think I can do it, though. I will always have a vision of a better place and a better life somewhere in the future. 

I probably will have to change my current vision. There's no point of being a stubborn imbecile. Some dreams will come true in some places, but in other places you will have to find another dream to be happy. 

In the meantime, I'm gonna let myself drift away from everything while figuring out what I want to do with my life next. 

Growing Old

“All of us, at some point, grow old and start to acquire other qualities. We can always make the most of each one of these new qualities and obtain a good result.” (Paulo Coelho)*

The second month of my sabbatical year is almost over, and I'm starting to fidget. 

Having spent the last 6 years without proper vacation, it's seems funny now that I have such an ample supply of time to spend. I have absolutely nothing to complain about it, and I love spending times with my books and music again, but when your life revolves around work pretty much all the time, it does feel strange. 

My BFF wrote last week and told me that he's going to visit this year and then will probably be giving some concerts and seminars, and I immediately offered to help. But it was him that said that I really MUST take the break and committed to this year. And now after I slept on it, I think he's right. I really should be doing nothing this year, and learn to feel that it's all right to be doing nothing, and that I don't have to contribute something at all times to the society (in any case, I'm still contributing something through my teaching, I hope.) 

And now that I come to think of it again, I really need to take in, and this is my year. I've been giving a lot for the past few years and this is the time to absorb, to drink up, to re-charge my head and my heart, and growing old while acquiring new things, as Coelho would say. Hopefully by the end of this year, I'll get a good result. 

Wish me luck. 

*) For Coelho's complete writing on growing old, visit his blog.