To the Owner of All Hearts

Dear God,

This is strange.

I've never felt like this before towards a person. It's overwhelming, but I'm grateful as well. I never knew that I could love someone this much, someone who isn't my family, who only came relatively recently to my life. And the love isn't romantic, although I feel all the impulses to hug, to touch, and to be near this person all the time. This is so much greater and honestly I never thought this is possible between a man and a woman. I've got a large portion of male bestfriends, and I thought there will only be two ways of going beyond friendship: either you become romantically involved and then the friendship is over or you stay friends forever where romance is never an issue. But this is different. This is new, and truth be told, I don't know what to do with it. Yet. I'm processing, and approaching this carefully, but I'm enjoying all the sensations and emotions that come with it.

Having this experience definitely brought me closer to You. I realize how little control I have over the state of my own heart. It's true that you can't choose the one you love. I realize that You own me completely, every inch of body and my soul. And thus this prayer: 

Please protect him. Whatever he choses for himself, please keep him safe and sound, please keep him happy and healthy. 

Thank You again for giving me this feeling. It's so precious. In a way it's a privilege, because I know not everyone gets to have this. 

Thank You.

Dear You,

Thank you for coming out to me today. I am surprised, saddened, but also honoured. Surprised because I didn't know before that you have to fight this kind of battle, too. Saddened because I know that your life isn't as upbeat as you always show to people, and I wish that it were. Honoured because you have chosen me as confidante, when you have so many people who know you longer and who would be willing to accept the privilege. Thank you so much. It meant a lot. 

I may have not known you that long, but I know you so much already. You see, some people are meant to be besties. We are born to be friends, we're not made by circumstances. At one point in your life, God sent you to me, so we both can learn from each other and find ourselves through each other. And we share so many things and feelings and experience together already that it seems so natural that we got to be so close. 

I know it's not easy for you to make a decision. Take your time, and when you're ready, choose the path that will lead to more happiness. For you, and for people who love you. Don't be afraid. Once you made up your mind, you can take whatever it is that comes your way. You are strong, and your mind is powerful. And with the love and support from all of us, you will prevail. 

In the meantime, if you need anything, anytime, I'm here. I'm yours. And I'm praying for you. 

Random Text

I love random text. And I love people who send it. (So save your money on flowers. Just text me with something totally irrelevant.)

Random text lets you know that the person sending it is thinking of you right at that moment. And it's great to be remembered out of the blue, in the middle of a day, be it hectic, lousy, or just ordinary. Makes you feel kinda special, no? :-)