Dear God,
I'm so sorry, I haven't been praying lately. I know You'd understand. I know You'd let me be human for a while and rest from wanting. And I know You know why, but I need to put it in writing.
I just couldn't get it, my Lord. This doesn't make any sense to me. If You give me this much loving capacity, why wouldn't You let me have that feeling you gave me seven years ago? You only gave it to me once, just once, on that one fine day. It gave me enough energy to last and to give and to hope for seven years afterward. Even after You took a big chunk of it, I'm still giving. But I want to have it back. That one particular feeling. And I never said I need the same person as a medium. I just need that feeling.
